Update

Hello Blog! I had lost count on how many days/week/months I had not log onto my blog! I will not be blogging for the next 5-6 months because of my final year in school. It's SPM! and , sigh.. As usual getting a lot of lectures from my parents especially my dad. Anything about studying just annoy the hell out of me. ( most of the time ) Oh well, I'm gonna write this post fast, I'm giving myself approx 30 minutes maximum. Blerghh, btw I just ate supper. OMG. I hate my self for doing this. Seriously . I need to lose weight. Wish i was 48kg again. pfft. 

First of all, I should post a picture of myself, after so long not seeing me, bet there's a few changes ( at least ) . So, don't be fooled by the face here, You have not seen my full body posture, size, and shape! I'm as fat as a pear! D: ( is pear shape considered fat? if it is then I'm right ! ) 

So, I'm also been very sensitive at a couple of things recently. My emotions aren't that stable. And when i meant emotions , it does not mean crying, cutting, or suicide. I'm just angry, sad and most of the time annoyed at many things. Probably my parents lectures are stressing me a lot. I just can't stand too much reminder of the same topic. Blergh. 

My exam just ended one week ago. It was a three weeks straight exam. It was tiring. I even had to cut down on exercising, which i didn't liked it but I still cut down to sacrifice time for studying. I know I have to put studies as my first priority this year. People tell me to just give my all for this 5 more coming months. I AM! 

And, Today is already the weekend of my first week of holidays. I have two week of school holidays and I have already spend my first week without any studies even though I got scolded for doing so. Though I open my books, nothing actually went in my brain. Guess I was just exhausted from the studies before and during exams. My gawd, life is already tough! And This is only just the beginning. More obstacle are ahead of me. I have not even decide on what I want to do after high school! To go in A levels, to go for diploma... ect ect 

Hello?! Charmaine! * slaps self * Wake up ! You need to work hard right now! 

So many things I got to do when i get back to school. I probably be busy with Sports day by then! I have not even train well for my run yet! Urghh. Got. to . plan . time. 

Okay. Stop with the studies. My goodness. 

So, what else am i missing out? 

Ouh! I'm not sure if I should mention this here, but maybe briefly . So, I personally feel that my feelings towards the person I like comes and go all the time. I didn't mean that in one minute I like him and the other I don't. I meant that sometimes we are close but sometimes we are not. That's why I felt like we can never really get together somehow due to many reason ( 101 reasons ). Unless we try, one day, but I doubt actually. But i still hope to not doubt . 

And , I am still a girl who loves Hello Kitty! :3 Can't believe it still last in my top likings. Even rainbow colours aren't the top stuff I love anymore /: Just recently bought a new phone casing and also changed my phone screen protector . My phone looks super new! * Happy max *

Ouh. If any of you know any good  organic facial wash that can be  recommended C: please do leave a comment! C:  And If you do know anyways on how to remove or clear pimple/acne bumps , Leave a comment too! C: thanks! My face have been one of my insecurities lately ( well, apart from my body ) sigh.

I shall end with... 

 Me  being a Flower Pixie during IU day this year C: hahaha. 

Nights and ciao! ;)

(╯_╰) tired.

I'm SO tired to the extend my body feels like floating in the air! 

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I've been sleeping late and waking up as early about 4.30a.m to study for the past 5 days. I'm thinking my body probably having symptoms of breaking down
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This post today might gonna sound crappy because my my body today isn't working well. lol 

I often sleep late but don't usually wake up as early as that ._. Well, I have to do so because I'm having exams! And this is also why I didn't update my blog for some time ): I don't understand why my exams are like four weeks!  It's taking too long! I still have another two more weeks -,-  How I wish it was over already. * urgh * 

I cannot imagine my self going through the Chemistry, Physics and History paper. I always get that trembling feeling a few minutes before exam starts and also during exam (╯︵╰,) Well, even though tips were given but I still have fear of those papers! D8 

My worst paper should probably be today. -,- I can't even think right. Lol wait, That's not the right word. Maybe that's because I can't even remember what I even did during Maths paper ._. Ohgawd, why did my brain had to get so tired. It's Super Frustrating and annoying and stressful ! o(>< )o

 WHYY YOU LIKE THAT, BRAIN? 

And well, that's not the only thing that made my '' hormones'' Change. *LOL, hormones -.- * haha .. 

Some stuff happened so yeah . end story. :) HAHA. 

Oh and by the way

How'd you like my new hair? (=^-ω-^=)

I Dyed It ! （≧▼≦；) Hehehehehe

IT

IS 

SO

NICE

Right 

? 

haha 

Well, I lied (¬_¬)ﾉ

But I'm still innocent! heeee :3 

ehem. It's just a wig. hahaha :P 

This belongs to Ayati, but she allowed me to bring it over to Australia this coming holiday! :3 yay! Purple hair over there :P hehehe . Can't wait! :) 

'' Hi, I'm Single and you can have me ;) '' HAHA

Something I stole from someone desperate . HAHA :P But I gave it back just today ): 

It's kind of funny how some of my friends was quite surprise that I wasn't ''taken'' * if you get what I mean * well yeah, because NOBODEH want someone smelly like me ): * Lololol * (*´∀`*) (╯_╰) 

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... change topic!

I so badly want to own an Instax camera. Especially the Hello Kitty one ! * urgghhh *

It's SO CUTE! ): 

Someone is selling me this for Rm 470 ._. including the two extra stuff at the side. Though that guy that is selling it to me said that it's cheap already, I still find it really expensive. Ish. 

I seriously want to get this before I leave to Australia. ): Want to capture some important memories with some people here before I leave for four weeks and also bring it over Aussie to capture memories toooo . ): 

Or at least if my parent's don't want to get me this, Get me The plain white 7s. ): 

I already told my mom I'll pay half the price D: 

Okay. So I have no idea what to crap about here anymore except for Studies and exam -,- hmmm 

I shall end with two things, maybe 3  : 

* you can totally ignore the background * The quote was the on that speaked to me. lol 

and this 

That moment when I need a real hug but no one is there for me to hug (╯_╰)  even my bears are soo tiny ._. they might die if i hugged them  T^T

Begin again- the lyrics speaked to me too . haha 

sayonaraa---- (╯_╰) 

A happy Weekend c:

This week is so hectic  O: 

Yesterday during youth, we were asked to pick a colour to describe your week and I was like, OhGawd It's not pink, it's not green, it's not yellow! What is it? O: What colour do I pick to describe a very up and down week? /: 

In the end ; Colourless was it. 

Sounds so emo. HAHA 

But rearly ): to summarize my whole week, It wasn't great, at all... I think .

Anyway it's finally the weekend! :)  yay  The weekends really made my day! 

But finally, I started studying :D * applause * for real . Haha . It's two more weeks more till the test starts! I must not fail my dad and my self ): I really need to buck up ): the stinky biology , physics , chemistry, history , modern maths and Add Maths ! I I I cannot call you stinky anymore T.T Sad I have to love you to get my nyan cat [ colourful / straight  ] A's D: 

I'll Strike my GOAL! 

* cheer * cheer* cheer *cheer * 

Ohhh... I was so surprise to see my long long time no see Girlfriend which is staying permanently in Penang now to be back here in KL :3  Was sho happy to see her! :D Even the other two girls was mad happy ! yay

Me, Amanda, Charity, Kaylee

I was like, must take picture must take picture! post in instagram post in instagram. :) lol 

Also met Lionel and Charity, after so long not meeting them c: And and, little adorable Chloe was there too c: 

She shaked too much /: 

But but but, She loves my hello kitty phone :3 HAHA 

Owhhhhh and this..

my little cute lychee tree 

I can't believe my Lychee tree grew up green and healthy without much of my care D: 

ps. I actually ffk this poor little fellow for more than a month /: 

IknowI'mhorrible. 

But but but it's so pretty. I shifted it from the pot the empty space outside my house so that It'll start growing in size c: If not if not we'll have to eat miniature lychee's in the future * How cuteeee * HAHA

Daddy was like : Your lychee tree stunted already la. You left it months in the pot and it never grew. LOL 

._. Okay daddy ._.  

:c 

Anyway,this is just a short post c: Didn't do any shopping this weekend c: so, Don't have anything much to update  :P haha 

Because I'm BROKE. 

I only have 18 Ringgit left in my wallet -.- no joke 

I'll shall end with this Spider! c: 

eee.. It's on my head! 3 :

Rawr :3 

Haha . Pastor Ooi Lin made this cute little being  :3