Monday, February 9, 2015

The Struggles to be 'Famous'

Note: I do not mean being 'Famous' for the purpose of getting Free sponsorship or earning money. It is just to take initiative as early as I can for my own career purpose. So don't judge me for I have my own aim and struggles to face.

Ok Woah, I am really growing older to be thinking so much of the future. lol 

Honestly, was life ever easy? Well, no. Unless your purpose in life is to just eat sleep drink leisure all the way, then you are one lucky bugger I envy you. Ok, tbh I am going through this leisure I mentioned for 3 months since December 14' and I can tell you that it felt like my life had no progress. This is a love hate thing.. you understand? ( You know, getting to relax in life but having no future. )

If you had known me, I am pursuing fashion designing which clearly shows that my occupation IS TO BE a fashion designer. Well known one obviously. So, for all this years I have been thinking that if I could make myself 'popular' among people, It would definitely make my future career a little more easier. But you guessed it, you think so easy ah? One eye blink then everyone know you? 

I thought If I could become a blogger and gain readers & followers, wouldn't it be great?! 
 I needed true pure love dedication & commitment to blog almost everyday which is likely to never happen because ...
1st: I am constantly battling with my broken grammars and  weak vocabularies, therefore makes it two times harder to write a post. 
2nd: I do not have many things to blog about as my life isn't that 'colourful'. Ehem, How to write a blog post when you're having the same routine most days? Eat, Sleep, Gym, Eat, Sleep, Gym.Repeat.yep. 
3rd: Sometimes I am just plain lazy or I just got more engrossed in other stuff eg Youtube videos (addicting like mad this days ), Instagram/ Facebook (Refresh don't know how many gazillion times just to see a new update ) . 
4th: Most times I have no self confidence, especially when it comes to the way I look. Eg, if I want to blog about fashion, what I wear, ootd's and stuff, I will feel so embarrass of how not pretty enough, chubby & short I am. Same problem arise when I thought of doing Youtube Lookbook videos instead. Who would like to see a short and fat girl as a model? Ew no. 

You see, so many problem. In all eyes of a human being, they expect to see someone with gorgeous hair, nice sharp jaw, slim, tall and a good sense of fashion taste that most people accept. Sadly I am quite the total opposite of these expectations which totally leads to the ' I am afraid ' of negative comments people will give.

Next problem, 
I am a student. One thing I know how those young bloggers get new clothes everyday are through sponsorship. Obviously when they first started they did not have any proper sponsorship but if they are rich, HOW can they not have new clothes ?! I am not loaded with money okay. #suchfailure 

They are times I try to post fashion outfits but sometimes the response to it was not as I expected. Therefore it really affects my motivation , so depressing I would be thinking again and again if I could ever succeed. 

It suddenly struck me that I needed to expand my circle of friends for a better future. If I don't meet people, how am I to get connections for my career later? Then, here comes my excuse again. Though I am friendly, I should be considered one of the top lazy person when it comes to going out to socialize because I always prefer to stay in my comfort zone unless it is an emergency or if it is extremely important. 

Come to think of it, how do I even make new connections? #suddenlysodumb #butseriously #HOW?

Dear friends, readers, okay maybe just the internet since my views in my blog is so .. pathetic .. (lol) 
What are the struggles are you facing currently? 

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